What Makes Me Tick & How I Found It

So I don’t even know where to start with the story but I have always had this come out life work struggle you know the balance between life and work. I always have believe that if I’m gonna spend most of my hours a week to a job then it better be something worthwhile something that has purpose and that I am not just bringing home a paycheck.

But as I was starting work to work in the film/video industry I just kept kind of coming into roadblocks and trying to find something that really made me feel alive and fulfillment. So I think I just kind of started working you know I tried different things I did freelance wedding films for a while and I am really tried hard to get in the business but it was just not working and I kept hitting walls. Then I took a job with an ad agency and had some good experiences and obviously you learn a lot of along the way but I still had this huge feeling like I had so much more passion and stuff to offer and you know that role or that people are employing me were not using me to my full potential

Then I went to work for a mega church and I had a little bit more projects that I resonated with but I kept still hitting some balls where I was working on promotionals and to recap videos and hype type of stuff with trendy music and for some reason I just always had the hardest time with those projects I just didn’t care enough and anything that was supposed to just be cool and make you feel help I just had the hardest time with. And for a while I couldn’t understand why I was having such a hard time with these seemingly easy projects but then I would work on projects that that had story that would be seven people and that really has inspirational message and it was for a bigger purpose.

But then I went on a trip to Ethiopia and had the task to film some promo videos really for a nonprofit and I didn’t have a lot of direction so I took it upon myself to make this project count and really focus on telling a good story. So I was really intentional about preparing doing as much preproduction as I could figuring out what type of storyline to to do and I did when we were there it was a really fast trip and it was just me with the camera and basically and there wasn’t time or people to make it perfect but it was a good story. During that trip there was a moment where I was on the bus and we’re headed on a long road trip to the village it was hot and dirty and even though it was not comfortable, I felt so comfortable I felt so at home. And I had this realization that this this is what I was created for and I need to do this I need to dedicate my life to do this specific thing of telling stories that are meaningful. 

After we got back and I edit it together I got a really good response from the staff and things saying that it was the best thing that that the church had put out or even at the department put out and that’s really cool. But the moment I really changed everything for me was being able to watch people watch the phone and to see their reactions. I was in the auditorium in the back and after watching the film even before they were people are asking to sponsor these kids women all across the auditorium are raising their hands hundreds of women one after the other to get sponsorship packets to sponsor these kids. During that time and I will is in tears I was got chills it was just this feeling that all these kids lives were going to be changed and that was a direct influence from the film that I created. And they ran out of sponsorship packets too. 

That’s the power of story (and Gods presence). 

And THATS what I want to do the rest of my life. 

And it’s not been the perfect road since then there’s been some ups and downs and other projects that weren’t in alignment with that purpose but over all I have come to a point of self awareness of what I feel God has created me for I am what to dedicate my life to you and it’s empowering to to know that. But since then I have an able to be a part and work on other stories and projects that are very similar that are for nonprofits that are telling stories of people that promote change that are meaningful and that inspire others to help to you know join in the out reach. And now I just want to keep doing more of those type of stories and do them better and do them are interesting and edit better direct better better soon and everything‘s better but never losing sight of my purpose in life and the purpose of telling a good story. 

April 30, 2019